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The theme of this creation is “Graduating Graduation:A Search of Self-Identity”. In the creation, the internal representations from my past till now were traced. Based on such tracing, I tried to discuss the profound influences generated by the environment around me and by the training and criteria imposed by external systems before further exploring self-identity suppressed by the above influences which led to an internal psychological state with fear and retreat. Through the process of creation, I tried to undo the unspoken difficulties deep in my heart and tear apart the hidden ego and the protection cover on the surface so as to re-explore myself and achieve self-affirmation. This paper consists of five parts. In Chapter 1, an introduction is made to describe the author’s growing background and the environment for creation. Then, explanations in relating to the reasons contributing to the author’ retreating personality and psychological state are given. In Chapter 2, the theoretical basis for creation is introduced. The author tries to explore the influences brought by the ideals and styles presented by various artistic schools and the inspiration for my creations enlightened by artistic theories. In addition, the analysis and explanations according to psychoanalytic theory on sub-consciousness reflected from dreams are stated. My internal wishes and appeals are thus reviewed. Chapter 3 deals with the form and contents of my creation. The creation is completed by computer graphics. Some existing materials and concepts of collage are used to turn daily stuff into new internalized symbols to express the author’s spiritual world. Chapter 4 talks about the creation itself. The creation cover three series: “out-of-body experience”, “disguise” and “vomiting”. The “out-of-body experience” series delivers that the author’s pressure and frustrations in reality are transferred through out-of-body experience and dreams. The “disguise” series criticizes the author’s own pretending attitude toward people and matters via symbolic and metaphorical methods. The “vomiting” series releases the author’s personal emotions suppressed for a long time. In Chapter 5, conclusions are made including the self-review results after the completion of the creation, limitations on the creation, forms and criteria of future develop and self suggestions. It is expected that the author can develop a new direction via writing this paper and the process of creation.
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